Marilyn Manson and answering some more questions

Tonight was fucking Amazing!

I just got back from the Marilyn Manson show at the Hammerstein Ballroom. Like i said it was amazing. It was also a great stress reliever. I spent half the night in and around the pit, throwing kid around and just going nuts. At one point i would say i was less than a foot anyway from the man himself. I tried my best to catch a feel, but i just missed, I'm a total groupie. My friend took over 200 pics so look for some of them on my myspace. (www.myspace.com/erikrhodesxxx)

Questions:
1. You said you have a twin and have been out awhile. Who was your first time with and what was it like? Have you and your brother ever messed around with the same guy?
I do have a twin brother but he is not gay and no we have never messed around. My first time with a guy was when i was 21 and the guy was honest to god a mexican dishwasher who worked at a place Coyote Loco. He fucked me on the floor of the resturant after it was closed. It was disgusting to say the least. I went home took a long shower and sleep close to my GF. I swore off ever having sex with men again, cuz that was just so gay. In about 3 months after the awful experience, i need it again, so i went back to the dishwasher since he was the only guy i knew.

2. Michael Lucas and others in the industry were mentioned. What advice would you give someone who is considering becoming a pornstar?
Well i get people asking me if they are good enough to be a porn sgtar all the time on myspace and its really not for me to say. The majority of the time the guys are busted, but are clueless of there looks. And if i say, "dude, your gross look in the mirror", then i'm the bad guy for trying to tell the truth. So i tend not to say anything and dismiss the emails. But if they are relatively good looking i try to tell them that maybe porn isnt the right option, and suggest normally modeling. But i also say that it is not my choice, its there's. People are gonna do what they want anayway, and i'm not gonna stop anyone. We all need to learn from our mistakes.

3. Erik Rhodes seems to be at the top of his game. Why are you leaving porn?
Yeah, ummm, my popularity is pretty high at the moment. Just tonight at the manson concert, i was approached by 5 people who knew who i was. But i'm not responding well to it. The thought of having fans has always been a weird concept to me and still is. One fan tonight came up to me and said "can i have a pic, i'm obcessed wityh you" , in which my friend responded to me. "I wish i got that just once in my life" in which i responded, "i wish it would just go away". I dont wanna be doing porn also until no one wants to see me anymore and i can't book a job. I wanna be able to quit on my own terms.

4. A lot of your blog has been about your challenges with sex and drug addictions. When were you happiest?
I have never been really happy, i have fought depression for along time. Sometimes its worse than other times. Right now its pretty fucking bad. But i just try and look forward, pretending to see that time when i'm happy again, its the only thing that keeps me going.

5. Since this part of your life identifies you very visibly. Where do you see yourself in the future?
I have no clue, i dont predict a happy ending. I dont see a silver lining. I do think its gonna be either of the extremes... my successful and happy or dead. I dont see any inbetween.

6. Another retiring pornstar Jenna Jameson wrote a book. Based on her title, how can I have sex like a pornstar?
Get a bunch of cameras and fill the room with a bunch of people you would hope weren't there. Find a semi- attrative guy that look half way butch until he opens his mouth. Have sex for anywhere from 6 to 12 hours or until the only thought going through your head is wishing the person your "working with" would die a bloody painful death. Go back to your cheap hotel and take a bath until you think you get his smell off you, go out that night and fuck again in in a desprerate attempt to make yourself feel better about the awful sex you had all day. Then write a book about it.